I feel mentally drained. I am so sick of feeling unsatisfied with myself, especially regarding my body-shape. I am emotionally exhausted by thoughts regarding food and my eating habits. Sure, it feels great whenever I managed to lose a kilo but whenever I gain weight I start feeling like a complete and utter failure. I’ve been in the process of trying to lose weight again during the last few weeks, I’ve lost some but I get urges to binge from time to time and whenever I eat something outside of my list of regularly eaten foods with low caloric content i get this overwhelming feeling of guilt which can progress into depression. I can’t talk to anyone about this and feel lost. I have no idea how to help myself with this. I don’t know what to do. This will most likely be the only original thing I ever post on here but I didn’t know whom to write to or where else to share it. I don’t know..hopefully one day I’ll have healed and moved on from these worries of mine.
